BOOKSDRAMA Chapter 46
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Xavier POV
“Regan, will you let us in?” I knocked softly on the bedroom do but there was no answer.
Not that I had expected there to be but there was always the fai lingering hope that she might decide to answer me or Xander. I
was growing frustrated by her lack of response and feeling helpless as I tried to decide where to go from here.
I tried the door, but as usual, it was locked. I gave a frustrated growl, feeling on edge. Regan had been avoiding us since she
had been brought back to the pack house, aligry that we had marked her without consent. We had been trying to give her space,
but this was becoming beyond ridiculous. How long was die going to remain there, without speaking to us? We had tried
apologizing, but she wasn’t ready to hear it. Who knew if she would ever feel ready or prepared enough to hear it?
“Regan” I shouted again, my voice louder than before.
Frustrated, I slaumed my hand on the door and knocked it off its hinges, with my Alpha strength. My eyes widened and then I
moved the door aside and stepped inside, ignoring the chilly glance that Regan shot my way. She was seated on the bed, staring
blankly out the window, her gaze directed at the forest that surrounded our property. Her lips were flattened and there was
nothing but a bleakness in her eyes. She had looked like that back at the hospital, after the sedation. I put my hands in my
pockets, uncertain how to begin now that 1 had made it into her bedroom.
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“Regan,” I said, my tone a lot softer, and she didn’t move from her spot, let alone move her head.
Damnit, this was infuriating. I could feel my jaw twitching as my anger began to rise. She was acting as though what we had
done was the end of the world when Xander and I had no choice if we wanted to save her life. I reached out and grabbed her by
the shoulders, violently shaking her in my frustration. I could hear her teeth chattering together but it didn’t stop me.
“Damnit Regan. You can be angry, you can hate us, but for fuck sake, talk to us. We did this” I motioned to her neck. watching
her blink in shock, “to save your life. We didn’t want to see you die” I roared, feeling myself lose control of my temper.
To see her die would have made us want to die along with her. Couldn’t she understand that?
She looked at me and I inhaled sharply at the look of betrayal on her face, mixed in with devastation. “You marked me” she
whispered, while I nodded, standing over her, feeling more miserable than I had in my entire life, my wolf devastated by h mate’s
continual refusal to talk to us. “You.” She trailed off, her eyes widening as her body suddenly fell to the ground and she brought
her knees up in pain
Something was wrong. I could feel a sense of dread inside me as moved to be by her side.
“Regan” my voice was sharp as I bent down, feeling her forehead as her cheeks grew flushed.
She was hot, so hot. Like she had a fever. Now that I looked more closely, I could see that she had a fever as well. Shit. This
was bad. Xander ran in, alerted by my shouts, his foar palpable on his face as Regan groaned, her face contorting into an
expression of pain as she clutched at her stomach in desperation
“She needs the hospital” I began to say, when her leg jerked and then broke, eliciting a scream from Regan as I gritted my teeth
at the sound.
The other consequence of us marking her. An early transformation. It wasn’t her birthday yet, but it didn’t matter because we had
intentionally marked her before her time. She was shifting, whether she wanted to or not. I glanced at Xander and both of us
knelt down, putting our hands on her head, and stroking her hair as we fought to keep her calm. There was very little we could
do, but we could touch her and take some of the pain, but she would still feel the majority of it.
“It’s going to be okay Regan” I whispered, knowing full well how painful the shift could be.
Just breathe okay” Xander whispered, as Regan began to whimper, “don’t fight it, it will only make it worse” he added.
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She opened her mouth and let out a bloodcurdling scream. I wined, wishing I could take her place and take all of the pain from
her. I knew it would be worse if we weren’t touching her, or if we weren’t so close to her. My hand shook slightly as 1 stroked her
head, Regan’s eyes closed in pain. I could hear the sounds of her bones adjusting and breaking and I could feel nothing but
sympathy for our mate. This was agonizing to listen to
“She’s shifting fast but not as fast as we did” Xander murmured beside me.
Ours had only taken minutes. This was taking much longer.
“She’s not an Alpha wolf. Naturally, she’s going to be slower” I warned him “not to mention we brought the shift on early. Who
knows what kind of effect that has on the amount of time?
He looked grim as we watched in silence, murmuring in our mate’s ear and doing our best to soothe her as she cried out and
screamed. It was nerve–wracking. Soon she had almost shifted and Xander and I were forced to move away, in case we got
injured by her claws. I could see the desperation in her eyes, and bowed my head, feeling guilt–stricken. This was all our fault.
Another blood–curdling scream. I flinched. Then silence. Xander and I shot each other uneasy glances and then turned our
heads, looking at Regan’s wolf in astonishment. She was beautiful. Her wolf was a gorgeous white color, her fur pure as the
her forehead. A crescent moon. The marking on her neck now made sense. She was a white wolf. Such wolves were
extraordinarily rare. I remembered Regan’s mother and knew she hadn’t had a white wolf, but such wolves were said to be
blessed by the moon goddess themselves and had nothing to do with lineage or bloodline. I swallowed hard, feeling myself
overcome with a myriad of emotions, even as Xander slowly and cautiously moved forward, his hand reaching out to touch her.
The wolf snarled and he hurriedly brought his hand back before she bit it off. Xander chuckled softly.
“I guess our mate has not forgiven us just yet” he murmured sounding slightly saddened by it.
I shook my head, my eyes still on the white wolf, awed by its presence and its sheer magnificence. No but she’s beautiful,” I said
softly, as the wolf sat down on its hind legs, glaring at the both of us.
“Beautiful and rare” Xander frowned “If other packs get wind of this, they might want to claim her for themselves.”
I shrugged. “She’s already claimed” I pointed out nonchalantly,
“Not fully” Xander pointed out as I stiffened, realization dawning
we will be careful and keep a close eye on her. Nobody has to know she is a white wolf just yet. We’ll keep her safe and bide our
time until Regan forgives us for what we’ve done.”
“What if she never does?” Xander pointed out dryly.
“She can’t remain partially claimed,” I said, feeling disheartened and Regan knows that too. What happens next will be her
decision though. I think we’ve already done enough and caused her enough suffering for a lifetime. Don’t you?” I asked quietly.
Xander nodded before we heard the sound of shifting, our glances automatically going to our mate. To our surprise, Regan lay
there, collapsed on the floor, her clothes still intact.
“Must be part of her powers” Xander breathed as I strode over and picked her up.
She was unconscious. Perhaps from the strain of shifting or the amount of energy shifting had taken. I placed her carefully on
the bed and put her bedcovers back over her. I met my brother’s eyes. “Nobody knows what she is, not even Father”
He nodded, mutually agreeing with me. Regan’s safety was paramount. As angry as she was with us, we would still do our best
to keep her away from harm. I looked down at my mate thoughtfully and stroked her face.
“So beautiful” I whispered longingly, my throat tightening “I wish she would just let us in.”
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“She will” Xander promised, also eyeing her “Just give her time)
But I briefly wondered how much time we could afford to give her and if she would ever change her mind about us.
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Regan POV
I woke up feeling groggy, running a hand through my hair, tired and feeling beyond exhausted. I staggered to the bathroom,
barely registering the broken door on the ground in my room, quickly doing my business and then washing my hands. As my
eyes rose to look at myself in the mirror my eyes widened in shock as I looked at my hair. While my hair had been a lovely
gorgeous earthy brown colour, there now remained a single large white streak down one side of it, causing me to look at it in
shock. My hair had changed and I felt as though knew why that might be.
1 frowned, remembering that before I had gone back to sleep, I ad shifted into my wolf. It had seemed like a dream or maybe a
nightmare would be a more accurate description. The pain was unlike anything I had ever experienced before. Excruciating, I
had been grateful, if not angry, for my mate’s prefence as they took some of the pain from me, doing their best to calm me as I
shifted before my birthday. My wolf had been pure white, I remembered distantly, a crease in my forehead as I turned away and
walked into the room, changing my clothes absently and then heading slowly downstairs, but the only thing I remembered before
darkness consumed me was a name that had entered my very consciousness, ringing in my mind and louder than if it had been
shouted.
“Snow.”
A fitting name for a white wolf, I thought slightly amused by it.
I began to head downstairs. I was still angry with both of my mates. So angry that I refused to let them touch me while I was in
my wolf form. I blamed them for my early transformation, for taking me away from my mother in the meadow. It seemed that all I
did lately was blame them for my unfortunate circumstances. The more they tried to get close to me, the more I pulled away and
the angrier I got. I reached the kitchen and began to grab some food, wandering out to the front of the pack house and blindly
heading onto the grounds, munching on a banana and idly looking towards the forest.
Would it be so bad to shift back into wolf form and go for a run solo? Isn’t that normal once you’ve shifted? It was everybody else
did when they changed. Usually, it wasn’t because they had been marked early though.
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Don’t get ahead of yourself. Your anger is driving you to cast distance between yourself and your mates. What they did was not
the kindest thing, but it saved your life and it saved mine. Snow’s voice was quiet but also firm. I jolted, not used to hearing
another voice inside my head and feeling unaccustomedly warmed by the thought of having a friend, one that I could reach
whenever I needed to. Already it seemed as though Snow and I were in tune with one another.
Do you think I’m being too harsh on them? I asked her, feeling curious and also wondering what she might say from her
I think that you’re letting your anger get the best of you. Your shift was unavoidable, and your birthday is in two days. You shifted
only a few days early. Your mates are suffering from the coldness that you continue to show them.
I never said that I accepted them as mates I told her silently, even as Snow sighed in resignation.
Whether you like it or not, those boys are your mates and mine. They would go to hell and back for you. It would not kill you to
just let them in, even a little. Put down your walls Regan. You’re only hurting yourself she advised me.
I was indignant. Those walls kept me safe. Was Snow demanding that I just forget everything they had done to me? I heard
footsteps behind me and tensed, even though I could now smell them, my nose lifting in the air as I smelled the delicious. scent
of chocolate and mint. One of my favorite smells. My mouth began to water as I turned, meeting their eyes and feeling as though
I had been struck hard with something in the chest. Mate. I felt the bond for the first time ever. I could feel the desire 1 had to be
with them, as well as the longing from Snow to be with their wolves. It was unlike anything I had ever experienced before and
now I understood why the boys longed to be with me and why it hurt them when I refused.
“Mate” I whispered, even as their eyes began to light up in hope that this time, I might accept them.
“Regan” Xavier looks timid, standing there uneasily, his jaw clenched as he fights his natural instinct to go to me, his breathing
shaky. “We got worried when you left the pack house without telling anybody where you were going.”
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His voice is slightly admonishing, even though I have never had to tell them my whereabouts before. Was I expected to now for
some strange reason?
“I thought I might go for a run” I whispered, even as my gaze cut to Xander, taking in how handsome he looked, the darkness of
his eyes, the hardness of his jaw.
Both the twins were handsome. Annoyingly so. It made it so much harder to resist them.
How had I managed to keep away from these two for so long without going insane? My feet remained firmly planted on the
ground even as I felt the inclination to walk up to them and feel their bodies pressed against mine.
“That’s only natural” Xander’s voice is taut. “Most shifters want to go for a run when they’ve shifted but Regan...” He trails off and
glances at Xavier who is worried.
Their scent is overwhelming me. I have to fight the urge to fling myself at them. I remind myself of how angry I am towards them,
but the anger has faded away with the happiness of feeling the bond of my mates. I grit my teeth and then see the look that the
twins shoot each other. They are hiding something from me. I can sense it.
“What is it?” I asked confused.
“Your wolf, Xavier said hesitantly
Snow? What about her? She was beautiful and unique. Amazing I could hear her purring at the compliments. didn’t understand
their trepidation. Snow would be able to keep up with their wolves easily. Was that what was upsetting them?
“You have a white wolf Regan Xander’s voice is quiet as he glances around.
There’s nobody but us three outside at the moment. I frown at him, not comprehending what he’s trying to get at. “I know that my
wolf is white” I snap “Her name is Snow for heaven’s sake. Shouldn’t that be telling you something?”
Xavier puts out a hand, as though pleading with me. “Your wolf beautiful,” he told me, and Snow perked right up, swishing her tail
excitedly. “But we have to ask you to remain in human form and not shift for now” he added as I stared at him incredulously.
Was he insane? First, he and his brother bring about my shift and now he’s trying to take that very ability away from me. I could
feel myself beginning to seethe. What on earth is he or Xander thinking?
“Why not?” I asked, glaring at them. “You just said it’s normal to go for a run when you shift.”
“Yes, but your other packs”
wolf is rare. We don’t want anybody in the pack to know that you have a white wolf in case it gets spread to the
“Who cares,” I said in disbelief, dismissing their concerns. “I’m ready marked it’s not as though someone’s going to try and
kidnap me.”
“You’re marked Regan” Xavier agreed with a slow look at Xander but not fully claimed.”
Not fully claimed. What more was there to do than to mark and then mate... oh hell no. I shook my head in fury, “If you think
you’re going to mate with me, then you had better think again,” I said in a deadly whisper “Because hell will freeze over first
before I even so much as consider it.”
“Then you have to remain secret until you choose otherwise” Xavier’s voice is firm “I’m sorry Regan, but it is for your own
safety.”
I could just reject you, I thought, beginning to open my mouth, but the distress from Snow at the thought of rejecting our mates
was so overwhelming that my knees buckled, and I almost fell. I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I glared at them. “Snow doesn’t
want to reject you, but right now I can’t even look at you. You’re ruining my life” I snarled, turning around and stomping towards
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What use was a shifter who couldn’t shift into her wolf to delen he pack? I felt just as useless as I was before and just as
helpless. It wasn’t a nice feeling. I cursed these mates of mine even as Snow tried vigorously to defend them. Ar this rate, I felt
as though my life would have been far better off if I had singly been born as a normal human.
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