BOOKSDRAMA Chapter 37
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Xander POV
I watched my mate leave, feeling stricken and heartbroken. I had never in a million years dreamed that my mother would be
capable of such a horrendous thing. She left silence in her wake. My father looked devastated, putting his head in his hands.
Warriors entered the room, mind–linked by a grim Xavies, taking hold of Beta Jolanathon who stared wildly at us all, unable to
believe that he was about to be punished for a crime had committed years ago. I had no sympathy for him. He had known what
he did was against the pack law and yet he hail ontinued to lie about it. His rate must have felt the betrayal pains as he slept with
our mother, just as our father me have done, with neither of them understanding what they
were.
“Beta Johnathon adultery is a crime, regardless of how long ago i was and your actions led to the death of an innocent pack
member, no matter how unintentional it was. You lied and betrayed the Alpha of your pack. You will be placed in the dungeon to
await your sentence” Xavier’s voice is dull as he speaks to the Beta.
I watch as Beta Johnathon is dragged out kicking and screaming silver restraints placed around his wrists, preventing him from
being able to shift. My father does not look up from his set, his face still in his hands.
“Isabelle and Heather Ramona” my yoice is quiet as I address the two women now.
They look at me terrified. “There is no evidence to suggest you had any knowledge about what transpired but I suspect that you
have both been involved in hurting our mate physically. Since we too, are guilty of that crime, I will be lenient on this one
occasion. Neither of you is to step foot in the pack house from now on and you will maintain a respectful distance from Regan at
all times. Is that understood?” My voice is icy as I stare at them with a glacial expression on my face,
They nod vehemently, looking panicked. I wave my hand at them dismissively. “Then leave. We have other business to conclude.
If you wish to see your rate, your stepfather, you will have to wait until his sentence has been decided.” My voice is heavy.
They nod and then quickly rush out of the room, practically dragging each other by the arm as they leave in a hurry. Silence.
Xavier and I look at our father, both of us now sympathetically regarding him.
“Father, you should leave for this next bit,” I tell him quietly in warning.
This would not be easy on anyone, least of all him. But it had to be
done.
He gets up, his eyes red and puffy, and vanishes from the room I feel a pang for the man who has spent his life raising me, only
to be betrayed by the very person meant to love him unconditionally. The very person who is his other half, his mate, and meant
to be by his side forever. Nothing can ever redeem my mother from this. Not ever.
My mother holds out her hands, beseeching us both. Xavier cast a glance at me. Neither one of us wants to do this. For all
intents and purposes, she is the woman who gave birth to us. She raised us. She loved us. She might not have always been the
kindest, but she did her best. It’s hard to fathom that she was responsible not only for the death of Celeste Lourdes but that she
lured an innocent child into the forest with the intention of the child being killed by the rogues. It’s so monstrous that I can only
stare at her in disbelief.
“How could you be so selfish?” Xavier is the first to speak and I’m glad, not sure that Lcould manage to get the words out without
losing control of myself completely.
He sounds just as betrayed as I feel.
My mother sniffs. “Tjust didn’t want to...”
“You didn’t want to get caught my voice is wooden. “You could have killed Regan. We would have lost our mate before we found
her and it would have been your fault” I told her “As it is you murdered her mother, even if you weren’t the one to give the fatal
blow. Do you have any idea how bad this looks, Mother? As the luna of the pack, you are meant to show an example, to adhere
to the rules and the laws and you broke ther
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She was not the leader she had always told us to strive to be.
“I’m sorry” she whispered, her lower lip quivering “but it was so long ago, surely you can forgive me.
“Forgive you? Do you think that you’re about to escape punishment? Mother, Regan was correct. We can’t fail in our duties,
simply because you are the Luna. It would only prove Regan right. You did something unforgivable, and you have to pay the
price” I said, watching her closely as she began to cry in carnest, owing her head.
“You would condemn me? My own sons?” she sobbed, sounding Bitiful instead of the Lana that she was.
“Your own actious have condemned you” Xavier’s voice is tight. His body still. “You only have yourself to blame. Why didn’t you
just come forward! Why didn’t you adrisit to what happened Why did you betray Father when all he’s done is love
you?”
“It’s not that simple Xavier” her voice broke “You judge me too harshly for one mistake.
“One mistake that ruined a little girl’s life forever and took her mother away from her.”
My voice is quiet but condemning. There is no forgiveness in it
She bowed her head and sobbed some more. I glanced at my brother and nodded subtly, feeling sickened by what was about to
happen. The warriors came to the doorway and my mother’s head shot up. She began to instantly bite her lip and plead with us
some more, attempting to persuade us to change our minds.
“We know and this hurts us more than you can imagine” I breathed, my chest tight, my heart hurting, my head feeling as though
it was about to burst. “But we can’t just let it slide.”
Not without looking like hypocrites who protected their own family while condemning others for breaking the same laws
She stared at us and then flung her head back. Xavier moved instinctively, throwing his body weight down on her, pinning her to
the ground as she attempted to shift, the warriors rushing in and restraining her as she growled and buckled, her body flailing
and kicking out wildly.
“You little bastards” she screamed, as the warriors dragged her to her feet. “All these years of sacrificing for you, for your father
and this is how you repay me? I curse the day I gave birth to you both” she said with bitterness, pinning her gaze on us as we
stiffened “And I will get free” she told us both. “That’s a promise.”
“No Mother, you won’t. I’m sorry that you feel this way” I told her as she was dragged unceremoniously towards the doorway, her
expression mutinous “I always thought you loved us but now I’m seeing you in a whole new light. Your only concern is for
yourself and it always has been.”
“Take her to the dungeon and make sure she is well separated from Beta Johnathon” Xavier added as the warriors nodded, “I
don’t want them to be able to communicate with each other until we have decided what their punishment is.”
our as
We
watched in silence steadfastly out the window.
mother was hauled out of the roon. I blinked back tears and turned to Xavier who was staring
“What now?” I asked, feeling a certain amount of hopelessness.
Could I really condemn my mother and subject her to the packs laws, without breaking down? I felt as though I was betraying
her, but if I didn’t subject her to the same rules as everybody else, then what would that make me?
“You know the rules” Xavier’s jaw clenches “but maybe we aren’t the ones who should be deciding her fate. We weren’t the ones
most affected by what she did. She betrayed Father, but we didn’t lose a mother like Regan did. Regan is the one who has
suffered the most. She should be the one who decides our mother’s fate” he said with a low growl and I couldn’t help but agree.
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Would our mate decide on the harshest punishment she could think of to punish the woman responsible for everything horrible in
her life and the loss of her mother? I wouldn’t blame her if she did. This wasn’t going to be easy. Already Regan
past had denied wanting to be mates with us again. It seemed we couldn’t get anywhere in this relationship while the continued
to haunt us all. We needed to clear the air, clear what had happened, and then find a way to move on, if we were ever to
convince her to let us be the mates she deserved. Right now, I wasn’t sure she would ever want us and my wolf was just as
disheartened as I was by the prospect. Xavier’s expression showed he was feeling the same way. Neither of us had any inklings
of what was going to happen next or what we could do to fix this mess that mother had created.
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Regan POV
“Regan, are you there?” A soft knock ruined my contemplation, forcing me to glare at the door, knowing instinctively who I would
find on the other side if I were to open it. I knew they would come looking for me eventually and I was surprised it had taken them
this long to come.
I wanted to tell them to leave, to shout at them, scream, and even possibly lash out at them physically, I hall cried endless tears,
grieving the loss of my mother as though it had happened new, with all of the fresh information that had come to light. I felt
drained. Emotionally and physically drained. I bit my lower lip and then reluctantly crossed the room, reaching out to turn the lock
and then opened the door, backing away and wrapping my arms around myself, as I stared at the Alpha twins as they both
entered and halted in the very middle of the com.
“What do you want?” I whispered, looking away from them and avoiding their eyes.
I had heard of them putting Luna Jennifer in the dungeon, along with my father. I didn’t know how to feel about that. Part of me
was relieved that they were going to adhere to the laws of the pack, regardless of which pack member it was, but another part of
me almost felt sorry for them, that they had to lock away their own mother. I would remember my mother’s death and the cause
of it, and that sympathy would fade away instantly. Luna Jennifer deserved to be where she was and I hoped that she was
learning a valuable lesson about what it was like to be looked upon with contempt and scorn.
“Can we talk?” Xavier speaks softly, his eyes narrowing as he looks me over, no doubt seeing the exhaustion on my face and the
redness of my eyes from all the crying.
“What is there to talk about?” I asked, my tone dripping with sarcasmi.
I know what they want to discuss, but part of me hopes they wont bring it up. I’m not that lucky as, Xavier immediately begins to
bring up the subject which makes me stiffen.
He sighed. “I know that what my mother did was unforgivable and I’m not here to plead for forgiveness, but we do have to talk
Regan, She’s currently in the dungeon awaiting sentence
Was that supposed to make me feel better? I rake my gaze over him, my lip curling in resentment.
“Good” I snap, “My mother would still be alive if it wasn’t for her
was
I grit my teeth and wait. “Your father is also in the dungeon” Xander explains softly.
“I’m not about to lose sleep over it” I muttered, shrugging nonchalantly as though it doesn’t matter to me.
The longer he stays in there, the safer I am. He can’t hit me or hurt me while he’s confined to the cell, but I’m not about to make
that clear to them. Something tells me they already know that,
The twins aren’t buying my tough guy act though. Xavier just shakes his head at me. “We’re anates Regan, I can feel the hurt
you’re experiencing and the pain. So can Xander. We’ve tried to give you your space he paused and looked at his brother who
was nodding, “but hiding away from everyone An’t going to make it go away” he finished tightly.
“What do you propose” I snarled, feeling instantly defensive. “Because right now, I’m having a hard time even looking at you” I
added scathingly, even though part of me knew how unfair that was.
They had nothing to do with what their mother had done and I was still using it as an excuse to put distance between us and as a
mechanism for lashing out. They knew that too. They could have called me out on it, but they didn’t. I felt a little taken aback at
how accepting and kind they were treating me as I continued to emotionally assault them.
Xavier moved forward and took my hand, gripping it firmly so at I couldn’t yank it out of his grasp. I sucked in a breath as
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I felt the familiar tingles of the mate bond, reluctantly meetings gaze. My body grew warm and I could feel it beginning to tremble
as I stood there.
“I can’t forgive her” I whispered, past the lump in my throat as the expressions on both their faces went grim. “I know your didn’t
do it, but she, she’s the reason my mother is dead and so much more.”
She had been like an Aunt to me and then betrayed me. That hun more than I could hear.
Tears began to trail down my checks as the floodgates opened dare more. I stiffened, embarrassed, but Xander reached over
and gently wiped them away with his hand, his eyes softening as he gazed upon me.
“We aren’t asking you to forgive her,” he said quietly. “That would take too much from anybody, let alone somebody that has
suffered as much as you have. We want you to stop hiding in your room” he said, peering into my eyes and cupping my
cheek.
“But what about my father, your mother? I don’t know if I can stand to..”
“We want you to determine their sentences” Xavier interrupts me and I stare at him blankly, uncomprehending what he’s saying
before realization dawns and I begin to shake my head adamantly in denial.
They had to be joking. There was no way they could expect such thing from me!
“No, no, no,” I said, hastily trying to step backward, “that’s too much responsibility. I can’t be responsible for your mother’s
punishment, let alone my father’s. You would never forgive me added as they looked at me consideringly. “and as for my father?
I can’t even stand to gaze at him. I won’t go down there to take on that role: You are the Alphas, you should see fit to punish
them.”
“We aren’t the ones whose lives were affected the most by what they did” Xander’s voice is cautious, his eyes filled with apology.
“Yours was. You were doled out the most trauma, the most pain, the most abuse, because of what happened. It’s only right you
should have a say in what happens to them. We won’t deny you the justice you’ve been seeking all of these years” he told me,
as I stared at him, feeling helpless.
“But you’ll hate me” I whispered, feeling
lower lip quiver.
They looked surprised by my admission and I wanted to bite my tongue, feeling stupid.
revenge? The chance to finally take out all my Why did I care! This was what I wanted, wasn’t it? The chance to exact my anger
and frustration and show my father who was in charge? The chance to lay my mother’s spirit to rest once and for all?
“No, Regan, we won’t. We understand the position you’re being put in and what we’ve asked of you. It’s no less than we would
offer somebody else, had they been affected too. It’s your right as the victim.”
Xavier’s voice is self–assured. I glance at him uncertainly, but Xander nods his head in agreement, causing me to feel even more
overwhelmed. They don’t know what they are asking. I have such hatred and resentment building up inside of me and it’s
begging to be let out. What if I use that to hurt the Luna and my father out of revenge? How could I be expected to concoct a fair
and just punishment when my entire body coursed with rage? How could they be so sure that I would do the right thing? We
might be mates, but that didn’t mean they knew me as well as they wanted to lead me to believe.
“You are giving me too much credit,” I said, once again trying to object, Xavier still holding my hand.
“You don’t give yourself enough. If you’re to become Luna, this will be one of the roles you’ll be expected to take on” Xander’s
voice is cautious, a hopeful twinge to it
“I told you that I didn’t want to be Luna.” My tone is fierce, but the boys ignore me.
It’s almost as though they refuse to believe I won’t be mates with them. It’s rather infuriating.
“I know you” Xavier’s voice is filled with self–confidence “and you don’t have a mean bone in your body You have never let
yourself become like Isabelle and the others who hurt you and don’t think you can be capable of that even now
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Xander looked at me and smiled. “I think that you don’t trust yourself, but we trust you because we know what kind of heart you
have. You have the heart of a Lama, even if you don’t want the one. Soon everyone will know that. We’re entrusting this task to
you” he paused and looked at me meaningfully because you are the only person that we feel can do this fairly You being our
mate has nothing to do with it. Not this time” he exhaled.
That made me feel the slightest, tiniest, bit better. But not by much. Ilow was I going to do this?
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