Chapter 38
A Stand
Lana
I can feel my energy slip away every second I keep on breathing. This heart wrenching feeling has turned me into this dull frail
girl with little to no willpower.
I haven’t been myself lately, locking myself up in my room, skipping classes, eating less, partying less, interacting less with
others...I’m slowly slipping into depression. And it’s all my fault for being a coward and hiding from my mate.
I come to remember the first and last time I saw him. Fur as dark as the night, canines that he’d bared
at me that were thick and sharp enough to pierce anything, and red eyes that peered straight at my soul. His wolf had been the
epitome of beauty, and I had wanted to caress his fur even though I was scared shitless to the bone. I haven’t seen his face
before, but I imagine he would be just as beautiful.
I want to leave everything behind and run miles to Red Moon Pack so I can be with him. But I can’t, at least not yet. I wasn’t sure
if I was ready to give everything up for him.
Red Moon Pack is isolated with the little education system in there. If you wanted to have a proper
education, you would have to leave the pack. There are licensed teachers there, but those were for middle schoolers and high
schoolers. No college. I can’t travel all the way from Oakland to LA every day for school. It’s basically impossible for me to do
that. And there’s no way I’m transferring to an online college.
I’m not even sure my mate would allow me to leave the pack if he gets his hands on me. I’ve heard a lot of rumors about their
pack, some true and some not. But I do know for a fact that they can be very possessive of their mates. Once you get in, you’re
never getting out...at least not alone.
I haven’t even told my mum yet about him. She would only worry, and with how fragile her health was, I couldn’t afford that. Ever
since her mate, my dad, died, she has been as frail as glass. The littlest thing could make her break, and I didn’t want that. I just
have to deal with my mate’s business on my own.
Jace. That’s what Ellie had called him.
Alpha Jace. I’m surprised I’m mated to an Alpha, a powerful leader of a pack. It’s exciting as well as scary. I wonder what he’s
like. Since he’s an Alpha, he would be more territorial than an average wolf. And I can only imagine how pissed he would be if he
But what scares me the most is the possibility of him marking another before I come to him. I
honestly don’t think I can survive that. I’m not as strong as Ellie and would crumble from such devastating
news.
“...and that’s all for today. Hope you’re all getting ready for your finals...” I sigh, drowning out the voice of the lecturer as I pack
up my stuff and head for the door like every student in the class. Another tiring day is done with. I just wanna flop on my soft bed
and bury my face in the pillow as I drift off to my dreamland, where can imagine my mate with me.
But as I reach my dorm room, I see a figure already waiting for me there. Gina.
“I apologized for that,” Gina whispered after a long silence with her face contorting in guilt. But I don’t budge as I continue to
glare at her. “I thought we were past that!”
Troll my eyes at her statement. “Oh, yeah. Like I’m supposed to just forget that I saw my best friend ******g my boyfriend.”
Cory and I had been the best couple in highschool. He had the looks and charms enough to make me
fall hard for him, and I had already started to envision us getting mated in the future even though we weren’t bonded by the
moon. I was okay with forming a bond with him, even if he wasn’t really mine. But then I had walked into Gina’s room one day,
unexpectedly, and I found her bouncing on my boyfriend’s lap as echoes of their moans filled the room. I had been so disgusted
at the sight, I puked my guts right there.
Being friends with a b***h like her after all that was probably a mistake. Maybe I was stupid to do so, but I took pity on her. At that
time, she was going through a rough period in her life, since her mom died from a terrible accident, and a few weeks later, her
father was exiled from the pack. We never knew why, as
the Alpha had kept it a secret. Gina never told me the reason either, and I didn’t pressure her for it.
She cried to me after what she did, pleading with me in tears to forgive her and using her parent’s misfortune as an excuse. She
claimed Cory had approached her to console her when it all happened. She sounded desperate and even tried to end her life
seeking a way to make me forgive her.
I felt bad for her, as she had no one to lean on. I was her only true friend then, and others were all fake. When they tried showing
their sympathy, it was evident in their expressions that they couldn’t care less
about what was going on with her. Gina didn’t want to lose me too, having just lost her parents, and I couldn’t abandon her then
because I was scared she would do something to harm herself.
Over the years, I’ve learned to tolerate her. She wasn’t the best person to be around as she was a
Maybe it was the years of having to deal with her, but I just got so irritated by her, and still am. I don’t even know how I managed
through all these years tolerating her.
“Goodbye, Gina,” I state while closing the door in her face. But she stops by placing her palm flat on
the door to halt it.
“Waiti” i stare up at her wide eyes with mine drooped with tiredness.
“You can’t possibly want to throw away years of friendship for a little argument we had...because of her.” She snarls the last part
with disdain as she eyes Ellie’s part of the room behind me.
I sigh as I open the door wide so I could look properly into her cat-like eyes. She just doesn’t get it.
“Do you know why you never make real friends, Gina?” I arch an eyebrow at her while she stares at me in confusion. I nod, “It’s
because you’re f*****g dumb b***h!” I hiss before slamming the door shut in her face.
I flop on my bed, exhaling a sigh of vexation. My eyes dart around the empty room, and I can feel the absence of Ellie. She didn’t
talk much when she had been here, but she was still a joy to be around. So sure of herself and always confident. I had adored
her strong spirit and never thought she had a weak
bone.
Thad suspected something had happened to her to have molded her into the strong willed lady she
was, but I never thought it was because her mate had rejected her. It was truly sad. But who would have thought that her luck
was so high, it got her mated to a fricking Lycan Prince! How cool is that?! From an Alpha to a Prince! Her stars are destined for
something great it seems.
If I hadn’t followed her to Red Moon, I wouldn’t have found my mate. I don’t know if it’s a blessing or a
curse. But I’m in now, and I just have to deal with it.
I decide to play some candy crush to brighten my mood a bit. It’s late in the afternoon, and I haven’t
taken a look at my phone’s screen all day. I had switched it off so it wouldn’t blare off in class.
Treach into my pants pocket for it and turn it on. I’m surprised to see about ten text messages waiting
for me, and about eight were from Ellie, pleading with me to call her as soon as possible.
With a worried frown, I did, and she answers on the first ring.
“Ellie? What’s wrong?” I ask as soon as she picks.
“Eh... Lana? Could you come over to my home...not the penthouse but my parents’?” My frown
deepens at her words as I wonder why she isn’t at her mate’s right now.
“Why?”
“You’re gonna have to sit down for this one.” She states for me to know something really bad had
happened.